Faker

"Clowns are weak. Because it's the mask they need to make people laugh. Because it's the mask they need to cover up their sorrow."






I make people laugh.

Fact

You wake up at 10

You get brushed up

You drive your car to the courts

You reach there at 11

You get people staring at you

You know that's because they can't recognize you

You see that big smile on their face after a good 1 second





and





You meet the people who once cheered for you

You meet the people who once cried for you

You meet the people who always supported you

You start to get greeted by everyone

You get compliments here and there

You keep hearing people saying how much you've changed

You keep saying thank you to them

You answer the questions they dump at you

You take pictures with them





then





You joke with them

You tease them

You poke them

You laugh with them

You watch them perform

You drive them out for breakfast/lunch

You tell them you're not able to come the next day

You know they just can't stand that to happen

You can't either

You go the next day anyways

You start the whole routine over again.





but at the end of the day





You know you're still alone.

Realize

WARNING:
This post might seem a bit long so if u find it essay-ish just don't bother continuing.
No apologies for that matter.

I know it's a bit late for posting up my Macau trip, but I was short on photos. The trip was dead fun, after all it's a first-timer... Had to reach KL the night before and stayed overnight at my aunt's place and the van took us to the airport the next day. You'll be surprised that I was stupidly naive enough to think that we were heading for KLIA, which in fact turned out to be LCCT =.=" Looked more like a bus station as opposed to an airport. (it's AirAsia we took for your info, and the air hostess' all sucked.)


So... The plan was to stay one night at Venetian then spend the next 2 days in Hong Kong and the last day back at the Venetian. Weather's very gloomy and cool, which is my kind of weather actually. The Venetian really gave us the "wow" mood. My cousin who works and stays there (Macau) gave us a quick route to our room and we were off for dinner. Dinner was Portuguese cuisine...

Next day was a walk to the nearby shops for breakfast and the egg tarts were good enough till everone wanted to buy them back to M'sia. Got to the jeti after that and we took the ferry to Hong Kong and shit did I get a good dizzyness on it =/ HK was really cloudy, or maybe it's the haze... It's packed with people there, compared to Macau which was really quiet and peaceful. Reached our hotel, which was kinda... small. Anyways, left our stuffs in the room and headed to the IFC mall, in my opinion quite a classy one. Dinner was authentic Chinese cuisine.






Woke up and went for dim sum. Have you heard of any dim sum shops which only opens up at 12 in the afternoon? =.=" Met that cute lil boy during our walk. Shopping was next after our meal and that was when all the cash started popping out here and there. Everyone bought something, I got myself quite a decent pair of Nike tennis shoes. Had the biggest wanton of my life for dinner and it sure tasted good. By night time we took a ferry over to Tsim Tsa Tsui (sounds stupid in English) and took a walk there. My uncle and aunty missed the ferry back and we had to wait for them for like 20 mins on the other side.We munched up the sweet potato we bought in Tsim Tsa Tsui which cost us 18 bucks. Wth?? Tasted not that bad though.





Went back to the jeti better prepared this time. Got us (me and Siow Lee) a seasick pill, which knocked us off for a good 1 hour and the moment we woke up we were already back at Macau. Everyone let off a sigh as we got back to the Venetian, which was really understandable since the room was close to 4/5 times the size of our HK hotel. Cousin asked us to take a walk to the swimming pool and took us a good 600 metres (inside the Venetian mind you) to reach the pool. When it was night time cousin and her guai po fren Jennifer took us to the beach for French cuisine.






Last day was kinda reluctant. Went to the Macau central and did ourselves a last good chance of shopping. Lunch was Italian cuisine and after that we had to bid our cousin and Jennifer goodbye... Damn that moment wasn't really a good one. Bought alot of biscuits and we were back at the airport.




All that said, I think I learned one really important lesson throughout the trip there. It's not about where and which part of the world you're going to, but with who you're going with. For me, that "who" is my family... And that's what made the whole trip one of the best moments of my life.

with love.

Disappoint

"Not because things don't always go the way you want it to be, but because they never did."

Grate

1. Thank you God for the life you gave and saving us from our sins. Amen.
2. Thank you dad for being harsh occasionally.
3. Thank you mom for giving me no mercy when I was a small lil fart.
4. Thank you bro for being one of the best in the world.
5. Thank you aunt B for being my second mom. May you rest in peace.
6. Thank you uncle Terence for loving aunt B.
7. Thank you John for always fighting with me.
8. Thank you sis Ee Lee for the lovely photo frame you made for us.
9. Thank you bro HH for the one we all looked forward to see coming home.
10. Thank you bro Kevin for your enthusiasm over chow tao fu.
11. Thank you sis Wai See for the effort on teaching me Maths.
12. Thank you little Kymberly for showering joy over us.
13. Thank you uncle Thomas for always going fishing with uncle Terence.
14. Thank you aunt Patsy for being there when I was broken.
15. Thank you aunt Leong for always laughing out loud with aunt B.
16. Thank you aunt Yee Sou for not giving up with your cancer.
17. Thank you Wei Wei for all the secrets we've shared.
18. Thank you sis Siow Lee for being the cousin I love and care the most.
19. Thank you Foo Zai for the walk we had last Chinese New Year.
20. Thank you Dai Yi for the smile and laughter mom never had to fake.
21. Thank you bro Ah Hou for marrying such a gorgeous wife.
22. Thank you ah sou Seline for entertaining me the air-hostess way.
23. Thank you bro Ah Geet for being always so quiet.
24. Thank you Yi Zheong for bombarding me with my lame exam results.
25. Thank you Kao Fu for always making the whole family laugh.
26. Thank you Mou Mou for the love you have over Kao Fu.
27. Thank you bro Ah Hong for making us proud of your dancing.
28. Thank you bro Ah Gin for being so fun to talk with.
29. Thank you sis Ah Nee for everything during the Macau trip.
30. Thank you Mama for the Mighty Dragon Whip. (for keeping us save)
31. Thank you sis Jeniffer for being the extra kaki to in-between.
32. Thank you aunt Suang for your pampering.
33. Thank you Denise for the playful times.
34. Thank you Deidre for crying all the time.
35. Thank you Denzel for being so annoying.
36. Thank you uncle Watson for the 3 lovely cousins.
37. Thank you uncle Hoong for being the joker.
38. Thank you Keong Zai for peeing on the sofa. (noob)
39. Thank you Yao Bi for the "yum lei geh tom(soup from a baby's lingua)".
40. Thank you aunt Kiang for asking me all the time which tuitions I go to.
41. Thank you uncle Chee Meng for the CD's you lent.
42. Thank you aunt Ying for asking me to stop playing and eat rice.
43. Thank you uncle Alvin for your willingness to take care of aunt Ying.
44. Thank you uncle Theng for not missing out on Chinese New Year.
45. Thank you grandpa Ah Gong for making me realize what a family really is.
46. Thank you Kimberly for being my besty.
47. Thank you Jia Ee for your iconic way of laughing if you haven't noticed.
48. Thank you Najib for your "firasat".
49. Thank you Nixon for hooking up on my cousin.
50. Thank you Ah Yang for going high on the Vietnam tennis babes.
51. Thank you Kent for being a really understanding friend.
52. Thank you Audrey for our ups and downs.
53. Thank you Melissa for crying the honest tears.
54. Thank you Denise for always running up to just to say hi.
55. Thank you Aaron for being The Macha weh~~

56. Thank you Ben for making me laugh till I suffocate to death.

57. Thank you Andrea for the crazy screams.
58. Thank you Jia An for being an asshole occasionally in a good sense.
59. Thank you Tarshini for being a fan of Michelle Branch.
60. Thank you Alex for the CONNECTION!!
61. Thank you Lizen for being my cute lil sis.
62. Thank you Jia Ru for being my ah sei.
63. Thank you Yan Qi for showing you really are feminine.
64. Thank you Ee Vonn for caring as a friend.
65. Thank you Pei Qi for screaming out the window at Tanjung Malim.
66. Thank you Han Zhou for your ham-supness.
67. Thank you Ee Zhou for your crazy obsession over helmets.
68. Thank you Seng Cheh for your cool doubles match during MSSM.
69. Thank you Jeannie for the fact that I can't get bored with you.
70. Thank you Wendy for that really really big smile of yours.
71. Thank you Cindy for scaring me with the Big Red Ants story.
72. Thank you Jonsen for driving me to imax all the time.
73. Thank you Jensen for your form 2 girlfriend.
74. Thank you Wei Meng for talking like a real businesswoman now.
75. Thank you Terence for training us with our stamina.
76. Thank you Jason for calling me a freakin lizard.
77. Thank you Keh Jun for that tight match we had.
78. Thank you Terry for being the Dai Gor.
79. Thank you Candy for that lovely voice. (not an offense at all)
80. Thank you Yee Wah for not trying to be more girly.
81. Thank you Pui Wai for that strong faith you have in God.
82. Thank you Pui Mun for being the coolest sis amongst the 5.
83. Thank you Pui Pui for always making fun out of me.
84. Thank you Pui Yee for being very Dai Kar Jie-ish.
85. Thank you Calvin for bullying Kim when she was young.
86. Thank you Mr. Lee for the "BEND YOUR BEAUTIFUL KNEES!!"
87. Thank you aunt Moi Tian for checking up on my times table.
88. Thank you Vin Shen for coming over to my place for PS.
89. Thank you Vivian for adding me in MSN all of a sudden.
90. Thank you Vinnie for fighting with Vin Shen all the time.
91. Thank you Keith for all the parties.
92. Thank you Yuen Yang for being so please-make-fun-of-me-ish.
93. Thank you Jing for being the sperm guy.
94. Thank you Jin for the "mou diu hui" semangat.
95. Thank you Chooi for the pic of you and the "chun" babe.
96. Thank you Shum for the "train went into the tunnel" crap.
97. Thank you Louis for being brave for the one you liked.
98. Thank you Lam for always not missing out for the parties.
99. Thank you Kei for letting us spend the night at your place.
100. Thank you Jensen for still being a really cool friend to me.
101. Thank you 5S3 for being the only reason why I loved school.
102. Thank you Wei Jie for the library times.
103. Thank you Khai Hoong for the OOG days.
104. Thank you Mun for the days we were together.
105. Thank you Mindy for proving people do get slim for no reason.
106. Thank you Suyen for teaching me how to link people.
107. Thank you Amanda for being so kind to me.
108. Thank you Yan Yee for your swts.
109. Thank you Jzin for sleeping in class.
110. Thank you Chee Ming for your crazy stuffs.
112. Thank you Jaye for sharing with me your problems.
113. Thank you Sue for the letters you wrote to me.
114. Thank you Mint for the Secret Recipe cake =.="
115. Thank you Becca for looking down on me so much.
116. Thank you Jian Hui for smsing me till so late.
117. Thank you Papa(2006) for being the inspiration to study.
118. Thank you Chang Fei for being the leader I respected.
119. Thank you Chang Yeu for being the REAL head prefect.
120. Thank you Papa(2008) for your advises through the year.
121. Thank you Sze for helping even if you think you didn't.
122. Thank you Yee Sin for the talk we had whole day that Friday.
122. Thank you Pui Pui for the gift you gave.
123. Thank you Wen Cong for trying hard.

"We are all innocent."

Limit

"If you're happy, I'm..."

My apologies for taking such a long time to post. Thing is, how are you ever gonna blog when your life is currently as good as your pencil box? For those who don't understand this, it is referring to those who are not in college, which also means when was the last time you even opened up your pencil box to check out what's inside? Get it??? ... Nevermind forget it...

After a bunch of failures regarding the attempts to get a scholarship, guess I've just gonna have to settle down with KTAR for now. I don't know whether I'm making the right decision by going there, but we'll just let God bring me where He wants me to be brought to. Gonna pick up A-levels, and still have no clue what's it like..

Went to KTAR the other day, and... I seriously don't know how to describe the place. I don't wanna judge it based on my 1st impression, which also means I won't be doing much comments on my soon-to-be-heaven-or-hell college. Found a few tennis courts, but not sure whether anyone ever plays there=/ Area's huge, guess walking around could as well be considered an exercise. No clues on where I'm staying at yet, gonna have to go down to KL to find em I guess... Let's pray really hard that I get a decent place to live in. After all we're talking about a year and half...

Not sure what's gonna happen, but... we'll just see how it goes I suppose. So... That's it for now.

Hope

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